The Remains Of My Wasted Youth.

There’s a lot that I’d consider unfair in my life, but this has bothered me for years on end.

I take better care of my skin than literally anyone - ANYONE - I know. Since I was 13 I have had a consistent skin care regimen to make sure I stay clear. I know people who go to bed without taking off their makeup and just slather more makeup over it the next day, and have perfect skin. Me?

I wash my face twice a day with an oil-free cleanser with a small amount of salicylic acid (salt) to prevent breakouts. No more, because washing your face more often can actually dry it out. I follow this with an oil free toner, and an oil free moisturizer designed for combination skin (I have an oily forehead and chin, but dry nose and cheeks).

I am on birth control which is meant to control my skin. I abstain from caffeine and alcohol, as I found these are linked to my breakouts (despite loving coffee). I have even cut out any types of tea and decaf coffee.

I remove my make up every night with alcohol free wipes before cleaning my face.

I have prescription strength topical acne treatment which is a combination of benzoyl peroxide (to kill bacteria) and adapalene (to repair skin).

I use clean cloths every day on my face, if it so much as falls on the floor I will NOT let it touch my face. I never touch my face without first washing my hands and use only oil free make up. I even stopped using foundation in favour of an oil and paraben free tinted moisturizer because I felt foundation was making my situation worse.

I scrub my face with a gentle, oil free scrub three mornings a week (as recommended) and pat my skin dry.

I force myself to drink plenty of water to the point of feeling sick to make sure my skin is hydrated.

DESPITE ALL MY EFFORTS, I have dry, flaky, skin. I get constant blocked pores in my oily sections and sometimes my skin just decides to give me mega pimples that begin under the skin and result in a gaping wound on my face despite my efforts to not make it worse.

I’m tired of constantly trying to battle between having flaky skin and shiny, oily skin. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I do everything I can and it’s not enough.

Why do I do everything I am physically capable of, only to suffer from disgusting skin as though I don’t care for it at all.

It seems like such a little thing in life but I put so much effort into it because it really affects my self esteem, and nothing I can do can prevent me from feeling like crap every time I find a new blemish.

I wish I could be one of those people who doesn’t give a shit and still manages to have perfectly clear skin.

I’m going to go cry now.

kinkstertime:

the-uncalm-nipples:

nodaybuttodaytodefygravity:

nateriot:

Obama on gay adoption 


yeah totally ruining this country what a horrible guy

Fun fact: Obama has attempted to fix almost everything that he promised to fix, but the republicans have voted almost all of his bills out of congress. He’s not the problem.


That fact isn’t very fun

kinkstertime:

the-uncalm-nipples:

nodaybuttodaytodefygravity:

nateriot:

Obama on gay adoption 

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yeah totally ruining this country what a horrible guy

Fun fact: Obama has attempted to fix almost everything that he promised to fix, but the republicans have voted almost all of his bills out of congress. He’s not the problem.

That fact isn’t very fun

if you think i’m ugly now you should have seen me in 2009

phemiec:

I’m so impressed by girls who can put together a really cute outfit and do their hair and makeup really nice every single day like if I manage to shower and eat breakfast it’s a damn victory

Moe Syzslak - Moe, Moe, Moe
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thesylverlining:

This gets stuck in my  head sometimes and won’t go away for hours at a time.

lesboflow:

Comment on the size of a man’s penis and it’s a low blow and a stab at his masculinity. Comment on the size of a woman’s anything and it’s a social norm. 

makeussaints:

Its a good day when I have minimal interaction with people.

pressing:

do u ever look at gorgeous people and just cry

or rich people and cry even harder

legalmexican:

when you learn a new word and start seeing it everywhere